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No more excuses or promises...

Sat, 18 Aug 2007 12:10:20 GMT

I have re-read my last few posts and they seem to be full of excuses and promises - I've decided there will be no more promises or excuses...I'll just write when I feel like it.

I am happy...
I enjoy my work. It is busy and demanding, but I am handling it. I am trying to work out what jobs are available for next year so that I can start to plan my work (and perhaps a change in living arrangements) for next year. Hopefully, I can stay at the school I'm at and consolidate what I have done this year. Moving schools and starting all over again will be tough to do again...I'm now at my fourth school in three years, I think that's enough moving around.

I have wonderful friends and a full life. I have become far too reliant on my diary to make plans, otherwise I find I may have committed myself to be in two places at once - but this is hardly something to complain about! I have a loving and supportive family, who put up with my all my faults and idiosyncrases.

I am emotional...
Weddings are a big focus at the moment. Alison's is only 6 weeks away and we are in full flight with final preparations and organisation. Brian's will be 8 weeks after Alison's, so not much time to turn around and do it all over again! It is an exciting time in their lives and I am thrilled that they are marrying wonderful people. I am finding myself feeling sad and teary at times, yet happy and excited in the next moment. This mix of emotions and the highs and lows are things I have struggled with for a while now.

It is also a lonely time and not just because I am single. I am happy and I would much rather be happy and single, than in a relationship and unhappy! I do have moments however, when I am lonely. I think I am lonely without Mum, without her here to share these moments.

And it does go without saying - I would love to have my own someone special in my life....

I am tired...
Between work, my social life, my family and being emotional (!), I just never seem to get enough sleep. I also don't think it helped to have spent the past three days on camp with seventy-four Year Five students in the Blue Mountains, Bathurst and Hill End....that's more than enough to put anyone over the edge!

To conclude...
Life and people continue to change and I am definitely wiser for the experience - and also the new light in which I see people.

What to do...

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 11:54:03 GMT

I'm not sure what to do with this blog. With work, family, friends and life in general, I rarely get a chance to read the blogs I want to, let alone find some time to sit down and put something up here to share with those who check in to catch up on my life. I'm also not as conscious these days of things I want to record here...things change I guess. I'll have a think about it over the next few weeks....

Otherwise, I am well. Work is busy and it has been a hurrendous term with report writing, parents forums, student performances and professional development seminars....and that's not taking into account the teaching and marking that happens each day! Parent-teacher interviews start tomorrow and will go for the next week. Then there will only be a few days of school until the holidays! I have really felt like I haven't stopped this term and that it has flown by so fast. I need this break!

Al and Brian's wedding plans are progressing well. Lots of news to update there.

Hugo is an amazing little boy, with amazing parents. He is now 4 months old - laughing, smiling and is just very cute! We had his baptism recently, photos may appear eventually but no promises!!

I'll try to use the holidays to update this more fully as well as catch up on some sleep!

Catch up...

Fri, 13 Apr 2007 07:16:49 GMT

Yes, it's been a long time. I don't really have an excuse. Maybe it's a case of the old cliche...instead of writing about my life, I've been getting out there and living it.

I finished my first term at the new school and survived. It's not the best place I've ever worked but it pays and I am doing a good job. My social life is as busy as ever and I am happy to keep it that way. I am lucky to have the friends that I do.

My family are well - Hugo is growing madly and is simply gorgeous. We are all very besotted with the little man. The wedding plans are coming along nicely for both Brian & Amanda and Alison & Pete. I am enjoying sharing in all of these things with my siblings. My life seems very quiet by comparison, with respect to these big changes in their lives.

As for me, I am happy. I am content to be where I am and look forward to where I am going...

An Introduction

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 00:13:12 GMT

Hugo Jack Thomas Molloy

Baby News...

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 10:12:12 GMT

Today I became an Aunt for the first time!

Hugo Jack Thomas Molloy was born at North Shore Private Hospital at 5:07pm this afternoon, by c-section. He weighed in at 7pounds 12ounces and 53cm long! Sabrina is doing pretty well, Hugo is (by all accounts) gorgeous and Jonathan is beside himself with excitement!

I'll meet my nephew tomorrow for the first time!!

Back to School!

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 07:16:29 GMT

So, I started back at school this week. I spent the first three days in induction sessons, meetings, professional development sessions and in my classroom, getting a feel for the school and trying to get my head around what lies ahead for me this year. Overall, so far, so good.

I met my girls on Thursday as they started back with lots of enthusiasm! They seem to be a really nice bunch of 10yr olds and we should have a good time this year. I have a mixed bunch of girls who differ quite significantly academically, but I'm used to that now and always up for a new challenge. The staff seem to be lovely. I'm probably the youngest by a few years, but again, that's nothing new! Hopefully, we will all work well together and that's really all that matters.

I was given a beautiful potted orchid on Friday by one of my students, a little gift for her birthday! I'm not going to complain about that!! So, it's been a good start overall.

Sunday 28.01.07

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 09:44:29 GMT

2nd Blog Day

So...I've been doing this thing for 2 years now. I wonder how long I'll keep it doing this?

Anniversary

It's been 3 years since we lost her. Some days are easier than others but not a day goes by that I don't miss her and wish I could turn back the clock...I wonder how long I'll feel like this?

Summer

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 01:27:45 GMT

You know it's summer when...

* You're watching the tennis and before you realise it, too many hours have passed

* The thought of another mango makes your stomach turn but you do it anyway because when they're all gone and it's winter, you'll wished you had

* You have plans each night of the week but not much on during the day, as everyone else is at work

* You flick between the one-day cricket and the night games of tennis on TV

* For old times sakes, you tune in to old favourites...and find that you can pick up on where you left off last summer!

* You don't go to bed before midnight and haven't seen the ugly side of 9am in quite a while

* The cicadas are doing their thing

What screams summer to you???

Maybe

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 05:54:08 GMT

Maybe because I'm seeing someone new who challenges my thoughts and emotions, I've become more analytical of why I view some things in a certain way. Maybe it's because we've uncovered more in the past two months than in the past 4 years that my mind is racing and reviewing everything that happens...

Any time I've spent time with them, it's always been a safe place for me. I knew I would be looked after, spoilt a little and could relax and just be myself. These aspects I looked forward to as well as learning more about the family. There were other aspects I found amusing, such as the endless drives through the countryside for places he decided that I "just had to see".

My day would start with him waking me each morning. He'd come in, sit on the bed, wait until I stir a little and then give me a hug. He would have a glass of freshly squeezed orange juice ready for me and ask if I was ready for my tea. As I slowly woke up, he would return with my tea. Eventually, I would make my way upstairs after my tea and juice, ready for our chats over breakfast. He would have inevitably been awake himself for a few hours before waking me, as his eagerness to start each day never relented. He would have the day planned and once we were all ready, we'd head out.

I looked forward to this little ritual of ours and now that he's gone, it's all the more precious. There is a part of me that found it a little awkward and I never knew why. I have treasured memories of Dad tucking me in every night, even his last one. But that ended when I was 14.

Maybe he was, as in the many ways he tried to after Dad passed, trying to be the father figure he knew I had missed out on in my young adult life?

Maybe my awkwardness was not knowing how to be at ease with this?

Maybe he did it for no other reason than he wanted to and it was a special moment for him as well.

Giggles & cricket

Sat, 13 Jan 2007 11:25:52 GMT

I went to the cricket during the week with friends to watch New South Wales play Tasmania. It was an average game punctuated with lots of laughs and girly chats! The most entertaining moment of the night was when a friend turned to me and asked, very seriously, "Do they have footfaults in cricket?"!!! The sniggering from rows behind was priceless!! As was the look on her face when she realised what she had said!!

It's been a busy week and lots has happened. It's always heartwarming to be with friends who make you smile and let you know in their own way that they genuinely care about you. And I've been fortunate to have time with many such friends in this past week. It started with a dinner party with friends on Monday night, then off to the cricket on Wednesday night. I had lunch with my flatmate on Thursday and landed unannounced at a their place for dinner, a play and bathtime on Thursday night! I spent today celebrating a friend's 30th birthday over lawn bowls and dinner & drinks at the local pub, so all in all I feel very fortunate to have such wonderful friends around me. There's a lot of truth in the saying that friends are the family we chose for ourselves...

That is not to say I don't value my family! Tomorrow I am spoiling my sister with a girls spa day. We're booked in for facials, massages and body scrubs at a lovely bathhouse in town, so it should be a good day for some quality sister time! My baby brother and his fiancee flew to Ireland and UK yesterday for 3 weeks and I spent a fun few hours at the airport with them at the airport yesterday as they waited to board their flight. My older brother will be a father before he knows it, as these last few weeks of their pregnancy fly past. There is a possibility she may be induced early for a number of reasons, so I could be introducing my neice or nephew sooner than planned!